On Not Being a Superhero: It’s OK to Be Afraid

{a “Human Superhero” I drew a couple of years ago. What fun! Some of you may have seen her/him before}

This week is getting off to a slow and sleepy start, and I’m enjoying it! I am just tiptoeing out of a slow-paced weekend. I tend to stay up later on the weekends, which makes an early wake-up on Monday even harder—but what’s wrong with being a little sleepy on a Monday? I think nothing—in fact, I would like to carry a little bit of the lazy sleepiness of the weekend with me all week long.

At the end of last week, I was quite frantic—so many projects—“I really need to get to work, get on top of these projects,” I thought, and I mentally exhausted myself with all of those thoughts, and tried to brainstorm ways to relax and recover during the weekend.

On Friday evening while I brushed my teeth—the panicked thoughts kept cycling through my brain: “how will I ever get all of this done?” “There’s just too much!” “Why did I accept all of these projects?” I was nearly crazy with the worries, and then I started worrying further about the weekend—“how would I ever relax with all of these worries?” You know you’re really starting to spin when you start worrying about the worries!

Then, as if some generous, wise bird came down to sit on my shoulder, something amazing happened—the other part of me got a word in: “Don’t worry, these projects are new—something you’ve never done before, it’s OK to be afraid.”

Everything stopped for me on that last line: “It’s OK to be afraid.” I smiled to myself, thanked that kind part of me that was able to see through the worries, and thought, yes, “It’s OK to be afraid.” I felt my whole body loosen up, my brain unclench.

This was one of those moments when I proved to myself for sure that relaxing is so little about what you’re doing and completely about your mental state (isn’t this true about everything?). I continued on into the weekend to do a good mix of work and play—a little relaxing, a little drawing, a little cleaning, but really, what I did mattered a whole lot less than what was going on in my head, or what was not going on in my head.

In truth, this is a story about forgiveness—sometimes we beat ourselves up so much, but what we really need is a little forgiveness. I hope you’ll take a moment this week to be gentle with yourself and forgive yourself for being human—I know we all try to be superheros a lot of the time (in the name of being “adults”) but how about taking a day off that job?


5 Responses to “On Not Being a Superhero: It’s OK to Be Afraid”

  1. 1 Emma May 17, 2010 at 9:24 am

    It’s OK to be afraid. Yes! Great post.

  2. 2 linda May 17, 2010 at 9:46 am

    It’s definitely okay to be afraid and I think we are always hard on ourselves…hehe…that’s why we need other people around to put us back into perspective. I’ve learned that projects will always be going on and there’ll always be stuff to do…that’s the beauty of life though :) Otherwise we’ll be bored to death!

  3. 3 Kerri May 23, 2010 at 12:05 am

    Nicole, I love you and your writing so much! You are so often just exactly what I need. I love that we are on this same journey together, albeit on opposite sides of the planet. Your words, honesty and willingness to share your personal ups and downs make me feel happy to be me, just as I am x x

    • 4 bluebicicletta May 23, 2010 at 9:15 am

      Oh Kerri! Right back at you! I love visiting your blog for the very same reason! We are so much on the same journey. Wish we weren’t on opposite sides of the planet!

  1. 1 Music To Your Home Trackback on October 9, 2015 at 1:29 pm

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Hello there! My name is Nicole K. Docimo, and I am an artist and writer from the U.S.A. but currently residing in Zurich, Switzerand. Thank you for visiting my blog!

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