The In-between

I’ve been feeling a bit off the last few weeks—like I’m searching for something but not sure what it is. Do you ever get that feeling? You know, that feeling that there’s something you’re not quite seeing? I’ve been hoping for a clear end, or a new beginning, or a big wide break, and some clarity in direction.

Perhaps I’ve been reading too many personal development books—or is it that the books I’m choosing are really just evidence that I’m searching? All the books I pick up lately are about living deeply and from a place of purpose, living in the present moment, being mindful. I’ve been thinking a lot about what my purpose is, what I’m trying to do with my life. This is a big question, and I know that we can never really fully know the answer—we are creating the answer as we go along—but I also know that some sense of your purpose can really focus your life so that your actions are reflecting, supporting, and fulfilling that purpose.

My main inclination when I sat down to work today was that I wanted to clean—I wanted to really weed out all the clutter, the mess, and clean up my act (and perhaps clean up my mind?). This cleaning confirmed to me that I’m in the in-between—that shape-shifting, path-finding place.

While my first idea when I arrive at a place like this is always to push through and continue plugging along, I think sometimes we need to give ourselves time to re-process, re-focus, clean things up after a long period of going full-speed ahead. We need time to re-center ourselves and figure out what we’re doing.

This is my round-about, non-committal way of saying that I might take it a little easy this week. Stop pushing. Let myself take a step back and let things happen. I’m not quite sure how or to what level I will do this, but I will say that I think I will be taking it a little easy on the blogging this week—maybe taking a few days off, unless something profound strikes me.

Have a joy and wonder-filled, peaceful, deep, sunshiney few days!

{P.S.: the artwork above is a little piece I picked up at my craft show this weekend as part of a fundraiser by the Leonardo da Vinci Elementary in Sacramento, CA. This piece is by Moseley, 2nd grade. I love love love it! Thanks Moseley, wherever you are!}


6 Responses to “The In-between”

  1. 1 linda April 27, 2010 at 1:22 am

    Hi Nicole! I think we all get into slumps at time…probably a totally normal cycle of life. I totally understand the feeling of wanting/needing something, but not knowing what it is really. Can we say angst or just anxiousness? Not sure, but over time you figure it out naturally…that’s the nice thing. You just have to go with the flow….hope you have a great week of rest! :)

  2. 2 Michelle | When I Grow Up Coach April 27, 2010 at 8:01 am

    Amen & hallelujah!

    I, too, am one who “pushes” & sees the purging/Me Time as “unproductive.” It’s such BS. I’m now able to see that I’m the MOST productive when I make self-care a priority, & I listen to what my mind/body is whispering. It seems like you’re listening to the whispering, too, Nicole – I promise you can’t go wrong!

  3. 3 Kerri April 28, 2010 at 1:36 am

    Oh I’ve been there so many times! I love that you read ‘self help’ books! That’s pretty much my fav section at Borders! I think that these times maybe come more often to those of us who do want to be mindful as you said. I think taking it easy is a lovely idea. Have fun x

  4. 4 Geoff M. Pope April 29, 2010 at 8:19 am

    As part of your stepping-back, relaxing week,
    I thought you and others you know
    would enjoy this glowing video:


    • 5 bluebicicletta April 30, 2010 at 9:01 pm

      Wow! That is an amazing piece of artwork! Thanks for sharing Geoff! I especially loved seeing her put the whole thing back together!

      Happy weekend all!


  5. 6 Googlover May 2, 2010 at 8:19 am

    Intersting, I have had that same response lately. Mainly, wondering what in the world I am suppose to be doing with my life. Needing some sort of goal.
    The self hel aisle(sex and the city ref) can be very enlightening. there is no shame in getting others opinion on the matter.

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