Life as an Artist: update 4

Hello, I’m here to give you another update on “life as a full-time artist,” a series of posts I’ve been doing about my first months as a full-time artist. You can see the previous posts here.

If I could give this post a sub-subtitle, it would be “ups and downs.” Everybody has ups and downs—it’s just life. Even when you’re doing your dream job, there are still good days and bad days. A couple of weeks ago, I had a pretty low week—worries about whether or not finances were going to work out for the creative shenanigan that is my life right now, were consuming me. I felt a bit like I was dragging around a couple of heavy weights in my heart, as I worried my way into a case of the blues. Talking to my husband, he said these sage words, “Everybody has down days.”

While this phrase did not immediately pull me up into the sunshine, it worked on me, it stayed in the back of my mind. As I continued to work on myself—realize that my worries were not helping me in any way (actually they were hurting me)—I was able to make a little peace with my blues. I ended that week with a little champagne to celebrate all that I have, and many prayers for guidance in figuring out how to navigate things. A few days later, I was on fire with possibility, and last week became a week of great possibilities—some new ventures, a lot of new ideas, and much renewed hope.

Writing this, I begin to wonder what the lesson is, or why I’m sharing this information. I suppose the moral could be what my husband said, “Everybody has down days,” even when they’re doing what they love. Actually, I think it can catch you even more by surprise when you’re doing what you really want to do. You wonder, “why am I not happy? I was supposed to be on cloud nine here!” As I’m learning, there will always be ups and downs, no matter what you do, but the real test is how you deal with them. I’m finding that if you just keep doing your work, the downs will pass, and if you keep asking for guidance from your inner self, the universe, god, whatever larger power you see in life, you will find your way, even if it’s slow. And sometimes it may be slow. But maybe it’s not supposed to be fast? This is something I struggle with often—patience is a virtue that I wish I had more of. From my art desk: I’m wishing you patience, the courage to carry on, and of course, as always, buckets of hope!


3 Responses to “Life as an Artist: update 4”

  1. 1 erasmith December 1, 2009 at 9:05 am

    Keep up the good work, Nicole. I’ve been savoring each blog post, you are so articulate and wise (even if you don’t think you are). And remember, there’s no light without dark. How dull would life be if we were happy all the time?

  2. 2 Kerri December 2, 2009 at 1:19 am

    Thanks so much for sharing your journey. I love your honesty and thoughts about life. You always seem to be writing something that I need to hear, your timing is amazing! I love your idea that maybe it’s not meant to be fast! I struggle constantly with not being where I want to be in my life by a certain age or within a certain time period. Ironically I’m always saying I want a slow life! Hang in there, you’re doing great!

  3. 3 Belinda December 3, 2009 at 7:49 am

    Thanks for continuing to share. I’m reading Art & Fear with a couple of friends and right at the beginning this stopped me: “Your job is to learn to work on your work.” (pg. 5)You made me think of it when you said, “You just keep doing your work…” Yep. Maybe if I keep hearing the same thing over and over again I’ll finally get it. :-) Blessings to you from the East Coast today! B.

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Hello there! My name is Nicole K. Docimo, and I am an artist and writer from the U.S.A. but currently residing in Zurich, Switzerand. Thank you for visiting my blog!

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